It was a bizarre night of dreams that left me shaken and depressed when I finally awoke for good at about 5:45. I don't know why I continue to have these nightmarish nights, and I am especially puzzled by the fact that they still continue to include work related people and situations. Last night included not just former Magna employees, it also featured a very mean dog, and an even meaner bear, and a snowmobile!! wtf??
There must be something I still haven't come to terms with, something in my life that I'm not facing during waking hours. And it occurs to me that maybe I'm not working hard enough to figure it out, for fear of learning what it is??
But.....it's gonna wait another day at least.
And regardless of the reason, I was pretty annoyed to wake up feeling the way I did, and quickly decided it was gonna be a lay low day. I had a good workout yesterday from which I expected to be tired, so I also planned a very easy basement ride.
Although not the long term answer to my dreams, I suppose that worry about my health is a current stressor, and could be contributing. I made sure to keep plodding along on my mission of discovery, so after dropping the kids at school, I sat at the lab for 45 minutes to get my blood work done, and I also made a follow-up appt with the doctor for Thursday.
The strange part of the day started after that, as I was preparing for my easy ride. I already had my HRM on, and was just checking something on the computer when I noticed that my pulse was back down to it's normal resting number in the low 50's. For several days (including when I was laying in bed this morning) it has hovered around 60 which is just higher than my historical norm.
And while I was pleased with that I didn't initially think too much of it.
Until I got on my bike and found that my rate was not going up very fast. But I figured it was just fatigue and indeed it gradually started to go up. But while thought I was probably just dogging it, what was surprising is that my power continued to go up as well.
In the end I had the best basement ride I have since heading down there in October!! And I felt really good. Contrary to expectations, no residual fatigue from yesterdays run. I finished very strong and got my heart rate up to 140, which is quite good for a bike workout.
Strange.
But even if today may only be an exception to my recent struggles, I choose to find the positive in it. It seems to me that it's at least an indication that my overall fitness remains quite good. I feel close to a resolution of my problem, and once I have that I'm sure I'll also have a solution, so it will be full speed ahead! Game on!
I wonder what I'm gonna dream about tonite?
computrainer 90 mins, 60 mins at 174 watts
...and while this quote isn't really relevant to my post I found it very poignant, very moving considering the author...
"It is strange to be known so universally and yet to be so lonely."---Albert Einstein
...and another good one...
"Isn't it strange that we talk least about the things we think about most?"---Charles Lindbergh
Love
Peter
There must be something I still haven't come to terms with, something in my life that I'm not facing during waking hours. And it occurs to me that maybe I'm not working hard enough to figure it out, for fear of learning what it is??
But.....it's gonna wait another day at least.
And regardless of the reason, I was pretty annoyed to wake up feeling the way I did, and quickly decided it was gonna be a lay low day. I had a good workout yesterday from which I expected to be tired, so I also planned a very easy basement ride.
Although not the long term answer to my dreams, I suppose that worry about my health is a current stressor, and could be contributing. I made sure to keep plodding along on my mission of discovery, so after dropping the kids at school, I sat at the lab for 45 minutes to get my blood work done, and I also made a follow-up appt with the doctor for Thursday.
The strange part of the day started after that, as I was preparing for my easy ride. I already had my HRM on, and was just checking something on the computer when I noticed that my pulse was back down to it's normal resting number in the low 50's. For several days (including when I was laying in bed this morning) it has hovered around 60 which is just higher than my historical norm.
And while I was pleased with that I didn't initially think too much of it.
Until I got on my bike and found that my rate was not going up very fast. But I figured it was just fatigue and indeed it gradually started to go up. But while thought I was probably just dogging it, what was surprising is that my power continued to go up as well.
In the end I had the best basement ride I have since heading down there in October!! And I felt really good. Contrary to expectations, no residual fatigue from yesterdays run. I finished very strong and got my heart rate up to 140, which is quite good for a bike workout.
Strange.
But even if today may only be an exception to my recent struggles, I choose to find the positive in it. It seems to me that it's at least an indication that my overall fitness remains quite good. I feel close to a resolution of my problem, and once I have that I'm sure I'll also have a solution, so it will be full speed ahead! Game on!
I wonder what I'm gonna dream about tonite?
computrainer 90 mins, 60 mins at 174 watts
...and while this quote isn't really relevant to my post I found it very poignant, very moving considering the author...
"It is strange to be known so universally and yet to be so lonely."---Albert Einstein
...and another good one...
"Isn't it strange that we talk least about the things we think about most?"---Charles Lindbergh
Love
Peter
I am a little suspicious that you may already know the long term answer to your dreams? I probably don't know you as well as I think I do, but I have a good idea.
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