I'm trying to live in the moment, but of course that's easier when I feel good. My body's responses remain a mystery to me, but I just need to learn to accept that. I was hoping to learn something by way of this heart monitor they promised, but it turns out I have to wait until January.
And the level of disappointment I felt when I found that out was not good. After my initial frustration, I have regrouped and got myself calmed down. I can't let the anxiety run me.
I was reading an interesting article by a guy who had visited the city of Pripyat, abandoned as a result of the Chernobyl nuclear disaster thirty years ago. The thing I found interesting were his observations about his own health. Apparently he had all the right equipment to measure any danger, and while both the equipment, and the experts told him he was completely safe, he never the less started to feel physically ill. He found it amazing how powerful the fear itself was. The silent threat he called it.
It reminds me one more time how physical illness can become a self fulfilling prophecy, driven by fear and anxiety. I am very much an emotional person, and am probably vulnerable to a bit of hypochondria. I resolve to do better!
And like I said. Today was a good day. Probably the best basement ride I have had yet. And all while watching Rise of the Planet of the Apes!
I always thought that watching movies would be a negative distraction when riding hard, but I've been trying it for the first time this year, and so far I've not found it so. I think that intense movies are probably the best thing however, so if you got any suggestions let's hear them.
And that's it for today. Have a good one!
computrainer, 1:45, 1:05 @ 176 watts
"The trouble with being a hypochondriac these days is that antibiotics have cured all the good diseases."---Caskie Stinnett
And the level of disappointment I felt when I found that out was not good. After my initial frustration, I have regrouped and got myself calmed down. I can't let the anxiety run me.
I was reading an interesting article by a guy who had visited the city of Pripyat, abandoned as a result of the Chernobyl nuclear disaster thirty years ago. The thing I found interesting were his observations about his own health. Apparently he had all the right equipment to measure any danger, and while both the equipment, and the experts told him he was completely safe, he never the less started to feel physically ill. He found it amazing how powerful the fear itself was. The silent threat he called it.
It reminds me one more time how physical illness can become a self fulfilling prophecy, driven by fear and anxiety. I am very much an emotional person, and am probably vulnerable to a bit of hypochondria. I resolve to do better!
And like I said. Today was a good day. Probably the best basement ride I have had yet. And all while watching Rise of the Planet of the Apes!
I always thought that watching movies would be a negative distraction when riding hard, but I've been trying it for the first time this year, and so far I've not found it so. I think that intense movies are probably the best thing however, so if you got any suggestions let's hear them.
And that's it for today. Have a good one!
computrainer, 1:45, 1:05 @ 176 watts
"The trouble with being a hypochondriac these days is that antibiotics have cured all the good diseases."---Caskie Stinnett
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Peter
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