And into the basement!
And glad of it actually.
While for the last several months I've been uncertain how any specific workout is gonna go, I do think that more recently I'm better able to predict. Heading down to my bike I was relatively confident that I was back out of the funk of the last few days, and indeed it went okay.
I don't know what the future is gonna hold for me but the one thing I'm pretty sure of is that it will be different. Whatever comes out of this is gonna require some adjustment, and I might as well start now. And while I know that over analysis can be counter productive in itself I think that for now the situation warrants some close observation. I need to plan my workouts around the reality.
I'm also a bit reluctant o tell you this, but it's also gonna require some short term help in the way of pharmaceuticals. I have resisted this step for several weeks but the other night I couldn't handle it any more, and so I called the doctor in the morning. I will ask him for drugs to help me combat the extreme anxiety I experience when my body fails me. I'm sure it's a combination of several things including of course the lack of exercise, but also the fear I start to experience when my chest tightens up. And while this may not be the macho approach, I am convinced that it's the smart one.
And on top of my workout I had an excellent day overall. First off, Roo and I had the opportunity to attend the kids Christmas concert and to enjoy some informal dialogue with their teachers afterward. I don't think there is any thing more gratifying than listening to someone sing the praises of your grandchildren. It reminded me one more time what a great job their Mom is doing, and also reminded me once more how lucky we are to be such a big part of their lives. It's really cool for both Roo and I to be recognized by so many at Sparta Public School, as the grandparents of Colby and Kylie. After that we took the two of them out to do their shopping which was another treat. To see the pleasure they got out of buying and wrapping stuff for their loved ones near brought tears to my eyes. Then Colby did manage to make me overflow when on anticipating others opening things he picked out for them he said, and I quote, "now I really can't wait for Christmas"!!! Wow!!!
And as I sat in that little gym at the kids school today for some reason I was reminded once again that I live in what is arguably the best country in the world. No lunatics showed up with machine guns, nor did any mad suicide bombers screaming their religion. I don't need to look any further than any American news site to realize I would never even want to live in the world of our great neighbour to the south. let alone places like Pakistan, Syria, Russia, to name a few. Thank you Mom and Dad!!!
And that's it. I hope to have a decent run in the morning, and then wish me luck at the doctors.
Computrainer 75 mins, 60 mins @ 170 watts
"Luck is believing you're lucky."---Tennessee Williams
Love
Peter
And glad of it actually.
While for the last several months I've been uncertain how any specific workout is gonna go, I do think that more recently I'm better able to predict. Heading down to my bike I was relatively confident that I was back out of the funk of the last few days, and indeed it went okay.
I don't know what the future is gonna hold for me but the one thing I'm pretty sure of is that it will be different. Whatever comes out of this is gonna require some adjustment, and I might as well start now. And while I know that over analysis can be counter productive in itself I think that for now the situation warrants some close observation. I need to plan my workouts around the reality.
I'm also a bit reluctant o tell you this, but it's also gonna require some short term help in the way of pharmaceuticals. I have resisted this step for several weeks but the other night I couldn't handle it any more, and so I called the doctor in the morning. I will ask him for drugs to help me combat the extreme anxiety I experience when my body fails me. I'm sure it's a combination of several things including of course the lack of exercise, but also the fear I start to experience when my chest tightens up. And while this may not be the macho approach, I am convinced that it's the smart one.
And on top of my workout I had an excellent day overall. First off, Roo and I had the opportunity to attend the kids Christmas concert and to enjoy some informal dialogue with their teachers afterward. I don't think there is any thing more gratifying than listening to someone sing the praises of your grandchildren. It reminded me one more time what a great job their Mom is doing, and also reminded me once more how lucky we are to be such a big part of their lives. It's really cool for both Roo and I to be recognized by so many at Sparta Public School, as the grandparents of Colby and Kylie. After that we took the two of them out to do their shopping which was another treat. To see the pleasure they got out of buying and wrapping stuff for their loved ones near brought tears to my eyes. Then Colby did manage to make me overflow when on anticipating others opening things he picked out for them he said, and I quote, "now I really can't wait for Christmas"!!! Wow!!!
And as I sat in that little gym at the kids school today for some reason I was reminded once again that I live in what is arguably the best country in the world. No lunatics showed up with machine guns, nor did any mad suicide bombers screaming their religion. I don't need to look any further than any American news site to realize I would never even want to live in the world of our great neighbour to the south. let alone places like Pakistan, Syria, Russia, to name a few. Thank you Mom and Dad!!!
And that's it. I hope to have a decent run in the morning, and then wish me luck at the doctors.
Computrainer 75 mins, 60 mins @ 170 watts
"Luck is believing you're lucky."---Tennessee Williams
Love
Peter
Great post, and I love the quote.
ReplyDeleteLove HOLJ...guess what the L is for.