I should probably have quit at 18 kms, but by that time I wasn't stopping any more. I was 2 kms from home, and knew that I would be okay. I was very tired by the end, but am glad to report that it felt like a fairly normal tired. I did however feel a bit faint when I finished up, and I was definitely more tired than I should have been at that pace, for that distance. The good news is that I never felt the horrible chest tightness that I've come to recognize as the end!!
Tomorrow morning I will get my blood-work done, and make a doctors appt. I'm very interested to see what he has to say about this Afib thing. Perhaps I've talked myself into another answer, but I am cautiously optimistic about this one. I think if I manage to get a diagnosis, that in itself will help me feel better right away.
I spent the afternoon in a more useful undertaking, that of building something called a busy board. It's this wooden board with a bunch of mechanical hardware type gadgets screwed onto it, and it's purpose is to keep the old people at the home "busy".
And while I admire the intentions of the seniors home staff, especially our Miguette who's project this is, and while it was gratifying to build the thing knowing that my efforts were going to a good cause, it also got me thinking.
This thing is just to keep somebody busy? What's the point of that? I don't ever want to be busy just for the sake of it. Will there come a time in my life when someone makes an effort just to keep me busy?? I hope NOT!!
As soon as I can't hold an intelligent conversation anymore throw me off a fucking cliff please. That'll keep me busy for about 5 seconds, and after that, there won't be a need! Adrian promised me that he has a plan! He better step up when the time comes.
And that's it for today. I gotta get to bed early cause I got a busy day tomorrow.....
run 20 kms, 5:27/km
“Stop chasing another busy self to become. Your real self is idle waiting to be lived... Go, take up your real self!”---Israelmore Ayiyor
Love
Peter
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