"Due Consideration"

While I think I would keep trying to journal even if no one else ever read it, I admit that it's nice to get a bit of feedback now and again.  Please know that I treasure and consider every comment I ever get, even if I don't always respond directly.  Actually it occurs to me that perhaps I should at least acknowledge them in the future.  I'll try.

I was particularly delighted to find that I have at least 3 readers based on yesterday's comments, so here's my reaction.

Roo, I can always depend on you.  I love it when I hear you laugh from the other room.  I know the old expression is, where there is love, there is life, but how about, where there is laughter there is love?

John, while I suspect that there is an element of truth to your bored theory, I think that's too simple an explanation.  The recurring negative element of my work dreams implies something a little more sinister.  Regardless, I think that finding new challenges for my brain may still bring a healing element.  Thanks for your advice.

And Elly, both of your points hit home to me as well.  Certainly it's a "man" problem.  I think women in general move into retirement more peacefully, once again proving their superiority.  But I really loved your idea of thinking about my work as providing me with the opportunity to now do more important things.  I can think of several aspects of my current life that I wouldn't be able to experience if I was still working.  Not the least of those is the incredibly rewarding, and perhaps more importantly, the incredibly essential job of male role model in my grandchildren's life.  Wow!  Not to blow my own horn, but I know I provide a steadying influence that due to circumstances wouldn't otherwise be there.

And lastly Michael, thanks for caring as always.  I know that you have at least one dear friend who is  a lifelong leafs fan, and as such no one understands better the pain that goes along with that curse.  From now on, every time I'm out running and think I'm about to die from my problems, I'm gonna try to remember that there are people worse off then me  :)

And while it certainly wasn't normal by any means, I had a wonderfully refreshing run in the bitter cold today.  Despite a wind chill of minus 25 the sun was actually shining, and despite a wee bit of doubt about half way through, I managed to get around the block.  Assuming that you are dressed properly, and that you can get decent traction there is something kind of otherworldly about running in the cold, even against the wind.  I almost get high!

And upon returning the Holtor monitor to the hospital today I resolved to stop asking questions, and I am going to try very hard from here on in to just accept things as they come.  I think it is important that I get this Ironman under my belt, but I don't necessarily think it's important how fast I do it.  I'm confident that as long as I manage my expectations, both in training, and on race day, I will make it 

so.

And it's good to see that STEGH takes patient confidentiality seriously.  When I returned my monitor today it included all my health card information, as well as my heart rhythm for the last 72 hours.  Good to see the drop box securely locked.

......what is wrong with this picture????

Idiots!!

run 7.6 kms, 5:27/km

No one wants advice - only corroboration."---John Steinbeck

Love
Peter