Well at least to me. I just finished a book by Kurt Vonnegut called The Sirens of Titan. It' a science fiction/fantasy/dark humour/satire kind of thing about the human condition. The prevalent religious institution of the time is called, The Church of God the Utterly Indifferent!! Their motto, if one could call it that, is, "take care of the people, and God Almighty will take care of himself".
I was so taken by the name and the doctrine of this fictional church that I'm seriously considering becoming a follower. Perhaps I've told you that Roo and I have both been long term faithful members of The Church of the Great Outdoors (actually the only members), and while I still really like what they preach, there is something just too attractive about the "Indifferent".
And the timing for this newly discovered cult couldn't be better for me. You see the idea of God not giving a shit about me spares me from a whole bunch of useless indignation right about now. If I thought that God cared, I would probably be real pissed at him/her/it right now!
As it is I'm still very frustrated about the lack of control I feel, but I ain't blaming anyone, least of all God. And not blaming anyone leaves open the possibility of either regaining the control, or better yet, just coming to terms with the whole thing.
I knew yesterday already that I was nearing another breaking point, and that point was punctuated today. My swim was okay, but my run didn't go anywhere. As much as I try to stay positive, it's pretty fucking discouraging!!! I still feel very poorly this evening.
But...believe it or not, I consider myself the eternal optimist. I think I qualify by the very fact that I'm going back to Mont Tremblant, one more time!!
Tomorrow's another day.
And lastly, I'm sorry if anyone doesn't like my cynical views on god and religion. Actually, that's not quite right. Better said, that I used to be sorry. Now I'm just indifferent!
swim 1200 metres, run/walk 7.3 kms
"The purpose of human life, no matter who is controlling it, is to love whoever is around to be loved"---Kurt Vonnegut-The Sirens of Titan
"The universe is monstrously indifferent to the presence of man."---Werner Herzog
I was so taken by the name and the doctrine of this fictional church that I'm seriously considering becoming a follower. Perhaps I've told you that Roo and I have both been long term faithful members of The Church of the Great Outdoors (actually the only members), and while I still really like what they preach, there is something just too attractive about the "Indifferent".
And the timing for this newly discovered cult couldn't be better for me. You see the idea of God not giving a shit about me spares me from a whole bunch of useless indignation right about now. If I thought that God cared, I would probably be real pissed at him/her/it right now!
As it is I'm still very frustrated about the lack of control I feel, but I ain't blaming anyone, least of all God. And not blaming anyone leaves open the possibility of either regaining the control, or better yet, just coming to terms with the whole thing.
I knew yesterday already that I was nearing another breaking point, and that point was punctuated today. My swim was okay, but my run didn't go anywhere. As much as I try to stay positive, it's pretty fucking discouraging!!! I still feel very poorly this evening.
But...believe it or not, I consider myself the eternal optimist. I think I qualify by the very fact that I'm going back to Mont Tremblant, one more time!!
Tomorrow's another day.
And lastly, I'm sorry if anyone doesn't like my cynical views on god and religion. Actually, that's not quite right. Better said, that I used to be sorry. Now I'm just indifferent!
swim 1200 metres, run/walk 7.3 kms
"The purpose of human life, no matter who is controlling it, is to love whoever is around to be loved"---Kurt Vonnegut-The Sirens of Titan
"The universe is monstrously indifferent to the presence of man."---Werner Herzog
"In the long run, you make your own luck - good, bad, or indifferent."---Loretta Lynn
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Peter
You're still feeling so crappy, but why is it taking so long to see this cardiologist?
ReplyDeleteLove the quotes Brother. Keep thinking nice thoughts!
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