That's easy to say, but not so easy to do, for someone with an ego problem. And while ego in itself isn't an issue, since it simply means "sense of self", it can still become a problem when you spend too much time thinking of self. I'm still feeling a wee bit guilty for feigning ignorance today when a motorist slowed down to ask me a question, presumably how to get somewhere. You see I was only thinking of the 8 kms I still had to go, instead of thinking about the opportunity to help someone out. I'm afraid that both of my parents would have frowned on me a bit today. I promise to do better next time Mom and Dad!
And that very same ego is what causes my training frustrations. You see, I'm pretty damn sure that whatever medical condition I may or may not have is not serious enough to keep me from working out regularly, or for that matter from doing another Ironman. Sad to say, my sense of self somehow demands a time standard! And when any individual training workout doesn't seem to meet that standard, then unhappiness sets in.
And what really pisses me off is the fact that I know the facts. If I continue to focus on self accomplishment, instead of just taking it as it comes and focusing on the world around me, than I will continue to be frustrated.
What encourages me however is that I also know the fact that all things are hard before they are easy. If I truly intend on slowing down and appreciating the scenery, then it will take some time, and it will take some practice. Rome wasn't built in a day, nor will my large ego be dismantled in one! One step at a time.
I'm pretty sure that I've taken a small step in the right direction by avoiding the real time feedback my super watch gives me, most notably speed and heart rate. I had previously noticed in the pool how much more relaxed I am when I don't watch the clock, and the same seems to be true for running. Mind you I still capture all the data and look at it later, but during the workout I can hide it from my prying eyes.
So that's it for today. I had a very satisfying 22.5 km run, and although I don't have the proof, and although it was slow over all, I know that I was faster in the second half. More importantly I was faster than John!!!
Whoops.......how embarrassing!!
And since my co-grampa has added his voice to sister Elly's about the CPAP thing. I guess I'm gonna have to look into it. Thanks Aurel!
And for my social commentary for today I wish to reference an article I read on an internet news site. The article itself is irrelevant, but a certain choice of word within it were not. I have always been amazed how skilled writers can put words together in ways so remarkable that they can actually stimulate a feeling. Today, my hat goes off to whoever the person was that first coined the expression "war crimes"! War crimes!!!!!!! WTF? The feeling it elicited in me today was horror. What the fuck is a war crime?? Is it when you blow up a mans neighbourhood without sending him an e-mail first, or butcher his children without checking his religion, or maybe it's when you wipe him off the face of the earth without first getting the proper approvals from church and state? I shudder!
But just as I finished up my rant I figured it out. The very best way to avoid committing a war crime? Wait for it, cause this is priceless!
Just call it a "HOLY WAR"!! Eureka!!
22.5 kms, 5:36/km
"Whenever I climb I am followed by a dog called 'Ego'."---Friedrich Nietzsche
"I own and operate a big ego"---Bill Moyers
And that very same ego is what causes my training frustrations. You see, I'm pretty damn sure that whatever medical condition I may or may not have is not serious enough to keep me from working out regularly, or for that matter from doing another Ironman. Sad to say, my sense of self somehow demands a time standard! And when any individual training workout doesn't seem to meet that standard, then unhappiness sets in.
And what really pisses me off is the fact that I know the facts. If I continue to focus on self accomplishment, instead of just taking it as it comes and focusing on the world around me, than I will continue to be frustrated.
What encourages me however is that I also know the fact that all things are hard before they are easy. If I truly intend on slowing down and appreciating the scenery, then it will take some time, and it will take some practice. Rome wasn't built in a day, nor will my large ego be dismantled in one! One step at a time.
I'm pretty sure that I've taken a small step in the right direction by avoiding the real time feedback my super watch gives me, most notably speed and heart rate. I had previously noticed in the pool how much more relaxed I am when I don't watch the clock, and the same seems to be true for running. Mind you I still capture all the data and look at it later, but during the workout I can hide it from my prying eyes.
So that's it for today. I had a very satisfying 22.5 km run, and although I don't have the proof, and although it was slow over all, I know that I was faster in the second half. More importantly I was faster than John!!!
Whoops.......how embarrassing!!
And since my co-grampa has added his voice to sister Elly's about the CPAP thing. I guess I'm gonna have to look into it. Thanks Aurel!
And for my social commentary for today I wish to reference an article I read on an internet news site. The article itself is irrelevant, but a certain choice of word within it were not. I have always been amazed how skilled writers can put words together in ways so remarkable that they can actually stimulate a feeling. Today, my hat goes off to whoever the person was that first coined the expression "war crimes"! War crimes!!!!!!! WTF? The feeling it elicited in me today was horror. What the fuck is a war crime?? Is it when you blow up a mans neighbourhood without sending him an e-mail first, or butcher his children without checking his religion, or maybe it's when you wipe him off the face of the earth without first getting the proper approvals from church and state? I shudder!
But just as I finished up my rant I figured it out. The very best way to avoid committing a war crime? Wait for it, cause this is priceless!
Just call it a "HOLY WAR"!! Eureka!!
22.5 kms, 5:36/km
"Whenever I climb I am followed by a dog called 'Ego'."---Friedrich Nietzsche
"I own and operate a big ego"---Bill Moyers
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