"Define Time Off!"

Day two of my self imposed sabbatical and I am already crawling up the walls. I had to do something, so despite cooler than ideal weather, I geared up and went for a bike ride.  I was resolved to make it an easy ride, but since I started out into the wind it was a little tougher than I planned.

The biggest thing I'm struggling with is deciding how much the anxiety is playing into my problems.  It's such a vicious circle, and I truly don't know how to relax given the way I feel.  Right now I can sit in my chair and count my heart beats without lifting a finger.  Why?

I think I have such a tolerance for exercise that walking just doesn't do anything for me, at least from a physiological perspective.  And of course I could go on and on about the mind body connection.  Somehow that seems like an excuse, and yet I don't have the answers...yet...

So I continue to practice my patience, and one day that practice may pay off.

ride 42 kms

....I'm afraid this is me...

"Don't spend time beating on a wall, hoping to transform it into a door."---Coco Chanel

...right now I have no choice but to try and accept this...

"Patience and time do more than strength or passion."---Jean de la Fontaine

....and while I've learned this lesson many times, It seems it's still not ingrained

"In times like these, it helps to recall that there have always been times like these."---Paul Harvey

Love
Peter