Well almost anyway. It's amazing how much more stuff gets done around here when I'm not working out regularly. I think it's a combination of the extra time, combined with the nervous energy. I can't sit still for very long. The good thing about all this is that the sense of satisfaction I get from completing tasks keeps me motivated to stay away from running.
And if that doesn't sound crazy eh? I gotta keep busy so that I don't fall into the trap of exercise!!
And speaking of crazy, yesterdays thread of an idea was about the old, "it's all in your head" philosophy. I still never fleshed it out in my head, but I do want to come back to it at some point. I wish to better understand hypochondria and somatoform illnesses. I believe strongly in the mind/body connection, and yet it amazes me that in some cases the mind can be so powerful as to literally cause life threatening illnesses.
And while I don't have a fear of anything so dramatic happening to me, I have let myself wonder just how much of my current woes are attributable to stress and anxiety. After all, I admit freely that 12 years ago I let depression take me on a very bad place physically. That depression was triggered primarily by stress, and it left me looking for answers in my body.
So while I concede there could still be physiological issues causing my problems they will take time to sort out. I can start right away to work on my anxiety, that caused by my stressors, and that caused by the lack of exercise. Certainly focusing on manual tasks is good for me. Maybe I'll change the oil in the tractor tomorrow, and get the snowblower hooked up. :)
I'm also trying to be okay with the fact that I'm gaining weight. It seems like a waste to let myself go a little bit, but at the same time I have the confidence to recover from it. It just means some more hard work in my future, but if I say so myself, hard work I know how to do. ..... I think there's still some pumpkin pie left in the fridge!
As I try to work through this I also struggle daily with my blogging. Sometimes I believe it just adds another stressor, and at other times I see a clear value in putting down my thoughts. And just as I write that I have to laugh at myself.......because I think the real stress comes not it writing it, but rather in my egotistical need to make it good!! Idiot!
“After obsessively Googling symptoms for four hours, I discovered 'obsessively Googling symptoms' is a symptom of hypochondria.”--- Stephen Colbert
And if that doesn't sound crazy eh? I gotta keep busy so that I don't fall into the trap of exercise!!
And speaking of crazy, yesterdays thread of an idea was about the old, "it's all in your head" philosophy. I still never fleshed it out in my head, but I do want to come back to it at some point. I wish to better understand hypochondria and somatoform illnesses. I believe strongly in the mind/body connection, and yet it amazes me that in some cases the mind can be so powerful as to literally cause life threatening illnesses.
And while I don't have a fear of anything so dramatic happening to me, I have let myself wonder just how much of my current woes are attributable to stress and anxiety. After all, I admit freely that 12 years ago I let depression take me on a very bad place physically. That depression was triggered primarily by stress, and it left me looking for answers in my body.
So while I concede there could still be physiological issues causing my problems they will take time to sort out. I can start right away to work on my anxiety, that caused by my stressors, and that caused by the lack of exercise. Certainly focusing on manual tasks is good for me. Maybe I'll change the oil in the tractor tomorrow, and get the snowblower hooked up. :)
I'm also trying to be okay with the fact that I'm gaining weight. It seems like a waste to let myself go a little bit, but at the same time I have the confidence to recover from it. It just means some more hard work in my future, but if I say so myself, hard work I know how to do. ..... I think there's still some pumpkin pie left in the fridge!
As I try to work through this I also struggle daily with my blogging. Sometimes I believe it just adds another stressor, and at other times I see a clear value in putting down my thoughts. And just as I write that I have to laugh at myself.......because I think the real stress comes not it writing it, but rather in my egotistical need to make it good!! Idiot!
“After obsessively Googling symptoms for four hours, I discovered 'obsessively Googling symptoms' is a symptom of hypochondria.”--- Stephen Colbert
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