Saturday, February 7, 2015

"Puddles"

Yup!  I had to jump puddles today.  It seems like it's been a while since we've had above freezing temperatures, and I hope it's a sign of things to come.  I have to keep reminding myself that winter running is just plain tougher, and as such I need to lower my expectations a bit.  I managed to get my planned distance in this week, and although I feel a bit crappy right now I'm sure I'll be fine by morning.  I also have to remind myself that it's a tough time of year to stay strong mentally, and to just take things one day at a time.

And while I managed to avoid most of the literal puddles, it also seems like I've stepped in a few figurative ones over the last couple of days, and as a result I find myself feeling a bit fragile.  In the big picture I'm trying to take a step back.  Several events in the past week have made me realize that I'm pushing the envelope again from a psychological perspective.  It may seem obvious to everyone else, but occasionally it hits me that I get a bit one dimensional.  There are so many wonderful things to enjoy in life, and I don't take advantage of many of them, and the main reason is my obsession with Ironman.  I know a guy who does an Ironman every year, but he does it as a way of life, rather than as an annual event.  By that I mean, that all he cares about is doing the minimum amount of training necessary to complete.  For me that would mean half of what I do now!!  Sounds like a dream, leaving me open to find fulfillment in so many other areas.  And as much as this may surprise you I'm not satisfied with the amount of time and energy I give to my grandchildren.  What a luxury to have them so close, and to have the time to commit to them.  I'm gonna think about that a bit, but I know that as they approach teenage-hood they're gonna need a regular father figure more than ever.  Like all kids they deserve that.

And I guess that's it for today.  Like I said, feeling a bit crappy physically, and a bit overwhelmed mentally, and I hope a good nights sleep helps both!

run 27 kms, 5:29/km

"Every path has it's puddle"---Anon

Love
Peter

1 comment:

  1. I love it when your brain and your heart get on the same wavelength...great post! I trust you to figure it all out!

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