I had a really tough sleep last night as in, not getting any. I received a nasty letter yesterday from a lawyer who is trying to help someone steal Sally's money. I believed that I had done everything right, and yet when a lawyer starts throwing words and paragraphs at you, it can get a bit intimidating. I got up several times throughout the night to check on one or another piece of evidence I thought I may have, and indeed by about 6 am I was content. Fortunately I'm pretty good at paragraphs as well, and as a matter of fact I'm comfortable that they're gonna be damn sorry that they ever started screwing with me! It's gonna cost em! Assholes!!
Then I had a busy morning getting everything in order for the nice people who bought Sally's car, and while this was more enjoyable, it was still a bit stressful, as I was very tired.
By about 2 pm I was ready to head out into the january weather for a quick run, and that simply went badly. I got that horrible chest heaviness by about 4 kms, and ended up walking for a good part of the way home. Yes, it was really crappy out there, but I was still shocked when the feeling came upon me!!
I'm trying very hard to just chalk it up to tiredness along with tension and anxiety, as I know dmm well that these can be a powerful factors. My problem is that I know of only one way to effectively combat anxiety, and that is exercise. One more stupid time I convinced myself that if I could only get a bit of booze in me that it might be the answer. It's now not even 10 pm, and I feel totally crappy from the 3 drinks I had.
Damn!
So tomorrow I need to mellow out. It's still gonna stay cold for another day, so maybe I'll just ride easy, and do a little work in the shed. Maybe I'll hook up the snowblower in order to be prepared for the rain that's coming on the weekend :)
And lastly for today, a big shout-out to my number one son. He doesn't read this, but if I'm gonna whine about him publicly, I also want you to know that he made a difficult decision today. It cost him some time with his daughter, but I'm sure it raised him in her eyes, and made her happy.
run/walk 7.5 kms
"Oh the nerves, the nerves; the mysteries of this machine called man! Oh the little that unhinges it, poor creatures that we are!"---Charles Dickens
Love
Peter
Then I had a busy morning getting everything in order for the nice people who bought Sally's car, and while this was more enjoyable, it was still a bit stressful, as I was very tired.
By about 2 pm I was ready to head out into the january weather for a quick run, and that simply went badly. I got that horrible chest heaviness by about 4 kms, and ended up walking for a good part of the way home. Yes, it was really crappy out there, but I was still shocked when the feeling came upon me!!
I'm trying very hard to just chalk it up to tiredness along with tension and anxiety, as I know dmm well that these can be a powerful factors. My problem is that I know of only one way to effectively combat anxiety, and that is exercise. One more stupid time I convinced myself that if I could only get a bit of booze in me that it might be the answer. It's now not even 10 pm, and I feel totally crappy from the 3 drinks I had.
Damn!
So tomorrow I need to mellow out. It's still gonna stay cold for another day, so maybe I'll just ride easy, and do a little work in the shed. Maybe I'll hook up the snowblower in order to be prepared for the rain that's coming on the weekend :)
And lastly for today, a big shout-out to my number one son. He doesn't read this, but if I'm gonna whine about him publicly, I also want you to know that he made a difficult decision today. It cost him some time with his daughter, but I'm sure it raised him in her eyes, and made her happy.
run/walk 7.5 kms
"Oh the nerves, the nerves; the mysteries of this machine called man! Oh the little that unhinges it, poor creatures that we are!"---Charles Dickens
Love
Peter
We number 1's are all doing things the hard way sometimes. I'm glad to hear anything about yours. I think of him every few weeks and wonder what he's up to or if I could see him for a coffee or something. Tried calling, messaging once but no response.
ReplyDeleteKeep kicking ass.
J