Or perhaps fragile is a better word. Not enough sleep, too many donuts, and too many children. Oh, and while I'm complaining, I need a new body!
But none of that's gonna change, other than perhaps the donut thing (perhaps), so I'll just carry on. I just won't do it willingly!
My heart continues it's topsy turvy ways which is frustrating, and my left eye definitely ain't getting any better. I remind myself that I know people who can barely get up a set of stairs because of their heart problems, and that I have siblings that can't even drive because of their eyesight, but somehow it doesn't make me feel any better.
I think it's just a combination of all of these weights that's got me feeling this way, and although I'm sure you're tired of hearing it, this mother effin winter is just killing me. Somehow I need to escape. I'm gonna start negotiating with my wife again about the tandem bike I want, and then we can both climb on it and disappear for a month or two.
Which I suppose naturally brings me to the one over-riding factor in my life that makes it all okay. As much as we differ on some things, whenever I imagine coping with life's crap without my wife beside me, I get chills. Like is said, I still feel vulnerable, but at least I know that if I totally fall apart, she's gonna be there to catch me. Love you Roo!
And from an overall training fatigue perspective, I actually feel fairly good. Even though my 30K on saturday was slow and tough, I rest on the knowledge that I don"t really need to run further than that, as long as I can continue to build my riding. I have spent the last 2 days in the basement, and while neither ride was long or overwhelmingly difficult, I feel okay.
Tomorrow is swim and run day. Wish me luck!
Oh, and if you love me, send me some courage. I can really, really use it!
computrainer, 90 mins, 60 mins at 158
...here's a couple of clinical sounding ones for you....
"Cognitive psychology tells us that the unaided human mind is vulnerable to many fallacies and illusions because of its reliance on its memory for vivid anecdotes rather than systematic statistics."---Steven Pinker
"Because of its phantom nature, and despite elaborate defense mechanisms, the ego is very vulnerable and insecure, and it sees itself as constantly under threat. This, by the way, is the case even if the ego is outwardly very confident."---Eckhart Tolle
...and cool, here's both my key words in the same sentence....
"Fragility is the quality of things that are vulnerable to volatility."---Nassim Nicholas Taleb
Love
Peter
But none of that's gonna change, other than perhaps the donut thing (perhaps), so I'll just carry on. I just won't do it willingly!
My heart continues it's topsy turvy ways which is frustrating, and my left eye definitely ain't getting any better. I remind myself that I know people who can barely get up a set of stairs because of their heart problems, and that I have siblings that can't even drive because of their eyesight, but somehow it doesn't make me feel any better.
I think it's just a combination of all of these weights that's got me feeling this way, and although I'm sure you're tired of hearing it, this mother effin winter is just killing me. Somehow I need to escape. I'm gonna start negotiating with my wife again about the tandem bike I want, and then we can both climb on it and disappear for a month or two.
Which I suppose naturally brings me to the one over-riding factor in my life that makes it all okay. As much as we differ on some things, whenever I imagine coping with life's crap without my wife beside me, I get chills. Like is said, I still feel vulnerable, but at least I know that if I totally fall apart, she's gonna be there to catch me. Love you Roo!
And from an overall training fatigue perspective, I actually feel fairly good. Even though my 30K on saturday was slow and tough, I rest on the knowledge that I don"t really need to run further than that, as long as I can continue to build my riding. I have spent the last 2 days in the basement, and while neither ride was long or overwhelmingly difficult, I feel okay.
Tomorrow is swim and run day. Wish me luck!
Oh, and if you love me, send me some courage. I can really, really use it!
computrainer, 90 mins, 60 mins at 158
...here's a couple of clinical sounding ones for you....
"Cognitive psychology tells us that the unaided human mind is vulnerable to many fallacies and illusions because of its reliance on its memory for vivid anecdotes rather than systematic statistics."---Steven Pinker
"Because of its phantom nature, and despite elaborate defense mechanisms, the ego is very vulnerable and insecure, and it sees itself as constantly under threat. This, by the way, is the case even if the ego is outwardly very confident."---Eckhart Tolle
...and cool, here's both my key words in the same sentence....
"Fragility is the quality of things that are vulnerable to volatility."---Nassim Nicholas Taleb
Love
Peter
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