I ain't asking for any sympathy, just telling you the way it is. I took four days completely off and then tried to run 10 kms. I was walking by seven, and stumbling by the time I got home. A day later and my legs still aren't working right. I don't know what's wrong with my body, or even if there's anything wrong. But even if it's all in my head, the fact remains that I don't know what the fuck to do about it.
The sad reality is that I depend on triathlon to balance everything stressful in my life. Aside from the obvious physical component, I so love all the related stuff; looking for the latest hot bike, buying a new pair of running shoes, and yes, even trying to find a magic answer to my swimming limitations.
Instead of being a balancing element, triathlon now seems like just another stressor. That of course allows all the rest of life's crap to come crashing in, and overwhelming me.
So there! Poor me!
Gotta go. Off to the basement. See how that goes.
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Peter
The sad reality is that I depend on triathlon to balance everything stressful in my life. Aside from the obvious physical component, I so love all the related stuff; looking for the latest hot bike, buying a new pair of running shoes, and yes, even trying to find a magic answer to my swimming limitations.
Instead of being a balancing element, triathlon now seems like just another stressor. That of course allows all the rest of life's crap to come crashing in, and overwhelming me.
So there! Poor me!
Gotta go. Off to the basement. See how that goes.
Love
Peter
I don't know what to tell you bro, other than, keep searching for an answer, and try to find some satisfaction in the search itself. I am sure you don't want to hear this, but maybe the answer lies at least partly in finding an alternative to triathlon. I am sure you can't imagine it right now, but there may well be something out there that gives you your balance back, both from a physical and stress relief point of view.
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I agree, other than the first part. Stop looking for the answer and it will find you. Stop caring what the answer is and just open to possibilities. As long as you stay invested in the answer, the best solution could evade you. I love you immeasurably.
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