"Treading Water"

Feeling a little sorry for myself but that's okay.  I don't do it very often, and I know I will move past it.  I think it's a combination of my health worries, and other stressors.  And unfortunately, since I don't tolerate alcohol very well, and the only drugs I have are for thyroid problems, I am forced to turn to food for solace.

And if for no other reason other than that I'm gaining weight, I gotta get over the blues.  Over the last 2 months I've gained 7 or 8 pounds, and since it seems I don't have any discipline without doing so, tomorrow I go back to calorie counting. 

And somehow I wish I never knew about the high blood pressure thing, cause I'm struggling not to get obsessed about it.  I may have had this problem for 6 months for all I know, but now that I know for sure, it seems to be always on my mind.

But I am determined to put that worry aside tomorrow as well, by upping my run distance to 20 kms.  After all, I don't really care about the BP in itself, as long as it doesn't keep me from my stuff.  

So that's it for today.  I'm gonna treat myself to one last evening of self pity, and then tomorrow a nice run in the rain, and that will be the end of it!

hmmmm.....Funny thing about blogging.  As happens so often, my resolve to move past a problem happens just as I write about it.  Game on!

And a new basement season opened today.  Seven degrees this morning, and there was no way I was going riding in that!!

computrainer, 60 mins

....and this is why it's okay for a little while, but don't let it linger....

"Self-pity in its early stage is as snug as a feather mattress. Only when it hardens does it become uncomfortable."---Maya Angelou

Love

Peter