And even a little frightened. I managed 2 kms today before I had to walk! Two fucking kilometres at a very easy pace!! I forced myself through the rest of the block but rarely ran for more than a minute consecutively. Several hours later I still feel stressed and short of breath.
This drug was supposed to give me a boost?? Instead I feel worse with each passing day!! I think the worst part is not having any idea what's going on. The mind of course starts going all over the place.
What's really weird is that I was actually starting to feel like I was recovering from my Ironman. Twelve days ago I had a very encouraging 20k, but it's totally gone down hill from there. I've been on the drug for 19 days, and while they make it clear that it will take time to have the desired effect, certainly to god It shouldn't make me feel this way.
And from a wishful thinking perspective I hope it is the drugs. It's real easy to stop taking them.
But I think I better talk to the doctor first, and as such I made another appointment for next monday.
Something will change! I don't know what yet, but I can't go on this way!
I feel so vulnerable. Somebody help me!!!
....and I'm sure that I've used this one before but it was good for todays post
"We are more often frightened than hurt; and we suffer more from imagination than from reality."---Lucius Annaeus Seneca
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Peter
This drug was supposed to give me a boost?? Instead I feel worse with each passing day!! I think the worst part is not having any idea what's going on. The mind of course starts going all over the place.
What's really weird is that I was actually starting to feel like I was recovering from my Ironman. Twelve days ago I had a very encouraging 20k, but it's totally gone down hill from there. I've been on the drug for 19 days, and while they make it clear that it will take time to have the desired effect, certainly to god It shouldn't make me feel this way.
And from a wishful thinking perspective I hope it is the drugs. It's real easy to stop taking them.
But I think I better talk to the doctor first, and as such I made another appointment for next monday.
Something will change! I don't know what yet, but I can't go on this way!
I feel so vulnerable. Somebody help me!!!
....and I'm sure that I've used this one before but it was good for todays post
"We are more often frightened than hurt; and we suffer more from imagination than from reality."---Lucius Annaeus Seneca
Love
Peter
I'm not positive that I have the wording exact, but it was just last Sunday that someone gave me the following advice. "Be patient with yourself". I know how important the workouts are to your mental health, but you know there are lots of opportunities out there to occupy yourself otherwise. Many that are just as gratifying and fulfilling. I won't list them here as I have in the past. One other thing that I discovered a long time ago about all doctors. The more often you go to them the sicker you become!
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